Help! I want to commit suicide!?

Help!! I don't want to live at this point anymore. I am on a suicidle rampage. I am on my death bed. My life is a death sentence it sucks. My parents hate me and i have no friends. I am a outcast at my school. I have adhd, ocd, bipolar, and depression. I want to commit suicide. I want to pop pills or cut really bad. Nobody would even care if i was dead they would just laugh and go on with life. I am really a worthless person and i am a big mistake i don't even deserve to be alive anymore i don't know why god even out me onto this earth all i do is hurt people i love and i am ugly and i am broken hearted. I am never ever truly happy any more. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want the hotline becase i tried to call and it didnt help at all i don't know what to do anymore and every day i have these stupid suicidle thoughts. One side of my head says yes do it the other says no don't do it I don't know what to do anymore =[ help. my life is gone.